Tonight I cleaned her cage, filled her bowl and hay holder like usual. She was hopping about, maybe a bit less frisky than usual but not out of the ordinary. I put her dustbath in her cage and went to take a shower. When I got out she was sitting in her bath, doing a kind of hiccup type thing she has done before when overexcited. She started to roll a bit, like she was going to take a dustbath… then she just kind of flopped over and was still. After a moment of no moving I went to take the dustbath out of her cage and she didn’t move. I freaked out and pulled her out of the dustbath and saw that she was not breathing. She was completely limp. I ran to Andy and Ben’s bedroom and beat on the door and cried for Andy while feeling her ribs for a heartbeat, but she was gone.
I just held her tiny little body to my chest and did an ugly cry for 45 min. Her fur was just matted with my tears. I kept thinking she’d snap out of it and wake up. Andy brought me a shoebox for her and we ate all the ice cream so there was room for her in the freezer.
I have had Cheerio since before I moved to Austin. For a couple of years she had to live with my parents because my living situation was so fucked up. I finally had gotten my life together enough to bring her home at Thanksgiving.
She is my baby. My shitty abusive ex husband threatened to kill her once because I hadn’t gone to the store for more sodas, that was the catalyst for me finally being able to be able to leave him. During the divorce I had constant nightmares, she calmed me so much, I could always give her a cuddle in the middle of the night and go back to sleep.
I had just bought her a new toy earlier in the day, and a new bag of hay…
I don’t know what the fuck happened. She wasn’t sick. She was eating and drinking normally. She just…died, right before my eyes.
When you’ve been beaten down so much into believing that what happened to you is your fault that you become consumed with guilt over even existing, and find yourself having a panic attack over wasting or throwing away even the smallest thing, because you are contributing to the destruction of the planet and its demise will feel all your fault.
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People have long complained about the line “It’s ironic / I had the brew, she had the chronic,” because they’re all perpetual smartypants who remember everybody making fun of Alanis Morrissette and want to get in on that.
The thing is, though, we don’t know the context of the situation he’s…
You start hitting them with some good information and they just can’t stand it! If they can’t come up with something clever to say to discredit your information then they’ll just start going in on your grammar to try and throw you off and make you…
Not to mention it is classist and ableist as fuck. Just because someone had to go to shitty schools or has a learning disability doesn’t make them ignorant.
yes i am a slut. because i have big tits that pour out of pretty much every shirt. because i like to show them off. because i used to charge 200 an hour and sometimes i would come and my client wouldn’t cuz that’s how much i was into fucking. because i’ve had trains run on me. because i liked it. because in grade eight a boy pulled down my shirt and bra in front of the whole class and my teacher and everyone saw my nipples. because he got a slap o the wrist and i was told by the principal that it was partially my fault because of the shirt i was wearing. because after that i started showing my tits to guys cuz i figured i was used goods. because when i was nineteen and being assaulted by a bunch of guys for not shaving my armpits they felt the need to pull my tits out of my shirt. because when i was twelve my grandfather forcibly made out with me. yes i am a slut. because i love sucking dick and i’ll take his load all over my face and tits and in my mouth. because i used to get drunk and fuck random guys all the time even on weeknights. because i’m bisexual and everyone assumes bisexuals are slutty even when we’re in monogamous relationships. because i’m a femme queer grrrl and everyone thinks femme queer grrrls are just ‘doing it for attention’ and are accessible to men. because the first time i was kissed in a way i actually like my girlfriend and i were told we were disgusting and going to burn in hell. yes i am a slut. because i fucked my boyfriend in the ass with my strap on. because i used to work in a sex shop. because i love the night. because i wear miniskirts. because i smoke weed. because i flirt. because i’ve gone to bars by myself. because i’ve pissed in alleyways. because sometimes i like sex. because sometimes i don’t like sex. because i’ve been raped. because i’m a feminist. because i’m a survivor. because i’m a cum guzzling nympho. because i own sex toys. lots of them. because the only person who can make me come is myself and i’m fine with that. because i rub my clit when i’m being fucked. because i’ve done webcam work. because i’ve posed naked for pictures. because i like to masturbate. because i’ve always loved to masturbate. because i used to jerk off to naked pictures of women when i was like ten years old and i thought there was something seriously wrong with me. because there is nothing wrong with me. yes i am a slut. because my boyfriend called me one. because he got on top of me and screamed it in my face. because he called me it on my birthday. because random men have yelled slut at me more times than i could possibly count if i tried to sit down and write a list. because i have been called an ugly bitch, sweetheart, honey and other degrading names more times than i could count too. because i’ve been called a dyke and told to shave my armpits and my pussy and told to lose weight and told to shut up and told to say yes to my pedophile grandfather. because i am sick of being told and this time i am telling you. yes i am a slut. because my pussy is beautiful and insatiable. because i love my body. because the clothes i’m most comfortable in apparently make me a target for rape. because when i was raped i was in my bed at home. because my body belongs to me no matter how many times i’ve been violated and none of it was my fault ever. yes i am a slut. because yes, i do fucking know what the word means and yes i am a feminist and yes i am intelligent and yes i do choose to say yes i am a slut. because the police officer who said women should stop dressing like sluts to avoid being victimized was talking about me and he was talking about you and he was talking about all of us. and because if we say it’s okay to rape any of us then it’s okay to rape all of us. because the slut card can be pulled out and you never know when it will used against you. because it can always be used against you, even if you’ve tried hard to make the ‘right’ choices. because all of are sluts because in a rape culture women are considered inherently rapable. because none of us can be free of the word until some of us are free to embrace the word. because the word will never lose it’s power to hurt as long as we allow them to control it. because i respect a woman’s right to self identify and expect the same respect in return. because i am taking a cue from my queer sisters who helped in the reclamation of words like queer and dyke, words that mean so much to our history, struggle and resistance. yes i am a slut. yes it is a complicated identity full of disempowerment, empowerment, struggle and resistance. yes it was forced on me and used against me and yes i and many of us were able to find different, new and empowering ways of relating to the word. yes we are sluts. so please hear us out. hear what we have to say. don’t condescendingly tell us whether or not we are sluts or whether or not we can find empowerment this way. yes we can, yes we do, yes we are.
Every woman can relate to all or some of the words Clementine wrote. I’ve made bold which words I related to.
There’s no gentle way to put it: People who give in to racism and prejudice may simply be dumb, according to a new study that is bound to stir public controversy.
The research finds that children with low intelligence are more likely to hold prejudiced attitudes as adults. These findings point to a vicious cycle, according to lead researcher Gordon Hodson, a psychologist at Brock University in Ontario. Low-intelligence adults tend to gravitate toward socially conservative ideologies, the study found. Those ideologies, in turn, stress hierarchy and resistance to change, attitudes that can contribute to prejudice, Hodson wrote in an email to LiveScience.
“Prejudice is extremely complex and multifaceted, making it critical that any factors contributing to bias are uncovered and understood,” he said.
Here’s a link to the article on the Psychological Science article:
Austin police said Thursday night that a man who committed suicide Jan. 12 has been linked to a pair of attacks on 31st and King streets early New Year’s Day, and is the prime suspect in the fatal assault of Esme Barrera that morning.
“I love butch girls. Girls with slick, shiny, barbershop haircuts, trimmed so short your fingertips can barely grip it. Girls with shirts that button the other way. Girls that swagger… Girls who get stared at in the ladies’ room, girls who shop in the boys department, girls who live every moment looking like they weren’t supposed to. Girls with hands that touch me like they have been exploring my body their entire lives… It is the girls that get called sir every day who make me catch my breath, the girls with strong jaws who buckle my knees, the girls who are a different gender who make me want to lay down for them.”—
Since the 1970s, New Hampshire police have operated under a progressive policy for handling domestic violence cases that has saved countless lives. Under current law the presumption is that an arrest will be made when police observe evidence of abuse. They have a large degree of discretion and don’t need to witness the assault firsthand or obtain a legal warrant before they can separate the alleged attacker from his victim.
All that will change if Republicans get their way. The state’s GOP legislators are pushing two bills that will reverse a half century of progress, the Concord Monitor reports:
Domestic violence is no longer taken lightly legally or by society. That’s the way it should be, but two bills under consideration by this most unusual of legislatures, would undo that progress and put lives in danger. Both deserve a speedy defeat.
House Bill 1581 would turn the clock back 40 years to an age when a police officer could not make an arrest in a domestic violence case without first getting a warrant unless he or she actually witnessed the crime. That’s an exceedingly dangerous change. Consider the following scenario, one outlined for lawmakers by retired Henniker police chief Tim Russell:
An officer is called to a home where she sees clear evidence that an assault has occurred. The furniture is overturned, the children are sobbing, and the face of the woman of the house is bruised and bleeding. It’s obvious who the assailant was, but the officer arrived after the assault occurred. It’s a small department, and no one else on the force is available to keep the peace until the officer finds a judge or justice of the peace to issue a warrant. The officer leaves, and the abuser renews his attack with even more ferocity, punishing his victim for having called for help. […]
It’s impossible to say how many lives the policy, in place since the 1970s, has saved or how many injuries it’s prevented. If they adopt House Bill 1581, lawmakers might find out, but the price paid could be extraordinarily high.
The other bill Republicans have proposed, HB 1608, limits judges’ ability to order the arrest of someone who has violated a domestic violence restraining order by contacting or abusing the person named in the order. It would also prevent judges from ordering defendants to surrender their weapons or block them from buying guns.
Police say the bill stops them from intervening to protect victims. For instance, they would be stripped of their power to arrest someone who is threatening to use violence against a victim or child. It’s unclear why New Hampshire Republicans have set their sights on repealing protections for abuse victims when promised to focus on economic priorities.
And people wonder why I’ve stopped regarding Republicans with any sort of human dignity. They kinda forfeit that right by doing shit like this.
“I will remember your small room, the feel of you, the light in the window, your records, your books, our morning coffee, our noons, our nights, our bodies spilled together, sleeping, the tiny flowing currents, immediate and forever. Your leg, my leg, your arm, my arm, your smile and the warmth of you who made me laugh again.”—
“The power of a glance has been so much abused in love stories, that it has come to be disbelieved in. Few people dare now to say that two beings have fallen in love because they have looked at each other. Yet it is in this way that love begins, and in this way only.”—Victor Hugo, Les Misérables (via sweetand-lo)
“Some problems we share as women, some we do not. You [white women] fear your children will grow up to join the patriarchy and testify against you; we fear our children will be dragged from a car and shot down in the street, and you will turn your backs on the reasons they are dying.”—Audre Lorde, “Age, Race, Class, and Sex: Women Redefining Difference” (via arewomenhuman)